WHY NOW?

With each passing day, my dear camera gets more and more wear and tear...there never seems to be a day with Lailah that I'm not snapping away, and because I never put the camera down, I continue to develop my relationship with it and I fall more and more in love with photography. I want to get good at this...I know this is what I want to pursue. However, with money being tight and jobs being scarce, my desire to develop this once upon a time "interest" into a potential career, this is quite the inopportune time to be drooling over new equipment like off-camera flash, reflectors, backdrops, floordrops, props, software etc... ::hangs head low::

I have 4 for sure photoshoots coming up in the near future...2 maternity, 1 engagement and 1 senior session, and I can hardly wait, but I know if I only had the money to invest in a little more equipment, my photos would go the next level. I've considered fudraising for myself. LOL...I TAKE DONATIONS...cash or check. hahaha Perhaps discounted photoshoots...? Nah...I would just want to put the money aside for bills. I don't know what to do. I have such a strong desire to go go go! And get better, better, better...I hate when I get a fire like this, to just ignore it. I guess for now I will just continue to admire the pros and the beautiful little angel I see daily on the other side of my camera lens.

If any of you have any ideas for me...please let me know...I'm really serious about this. I can feel it in my heart...and it feels really good. It's a huge blessing to find joy in something that makes you want to better yourself and your skills...its also a blessing that I can choose to pursue this...I thank God for my passion and desire for photography and pray He will take me somewhere with it. <3 Here are a couple of my favorite recent photos...